Discipline

Are we just beasts that need to be trained through constant discipline? I am a flexible being, I know. I can change my preferences through active campaigning to myself. I used to love Häagen-Dazs, for example, and my mind still thinks it likes it so I might walk into the store and grab one but I usually put it right back because I've trained myself to not enjoy heavy desserts; I am subconsciously aware of the harm they will do.

I usually window-shop anyway but there's nothing wrong with that, is there? Thought vs. Action. So then as long as you know what's morally wrong and what isn't, one can decide on the best action which in my case - I know, I know - usually ends up being inaction. I am indecisive, I've never denied it. My sense of morality has been shaped by the east and west and in some areas, where there's a clear conflict, I have to use the opinion of others to form my ideas of morality. But generally, my spirit does give me some direction; I have the final say!

Let's face it - we don't live in a world where everything is logical. Logic only takes you so far; not everything is finite, deterministic, simple. We are a social species and peer pressure is a reality. If you know you're going to have to live with a certain demographic, you have to shape yourself accordingly. More than that, however, is your inner voice which tells you what's right or wrong. Mine's been constantly on my case. In New York, I overdid it. This is my youth, I can be silly... but how long will it take me to become an adult and face the reality?