Paralyzed

O' my naive heart
What is this longing
What is this yearning...

I can't say
What it is I'm longing for

It's as if life is a little lost, a little surprised

The world's silent, so's the sky
All I hear echoing from every corner is my heartbeat

If I knew what it is that I want, then at least my heart could rest. But here I am yet again, tumbling into turmoil. I'm ready to relinquish these drunken nights, they won't get me anywhere except into trouble. It's passing time, time I'm letting slip from my fingertips, time that could be used to accomplish so much more. My life's at a standstill; I cannot proceed this way or that, completely paralyzed. I keep thinking of you. My life is a pendulum. It swings from you to me and back. You're always on my mind but I cannot make you a part of my life because that isn't how it happens. *Sigh* the same bullshit all over.